But then I thought a
little more. This time I didn’t
stew. I knew, immaterial of what was
said by either of us, it wasn’t meant as it was received. And it certainly wasn’t meant to hurt. So this time when I connected with him I didn’t
demand that he ‘get it’ or ‘admit it’ or ‘apologize.’ I told him I was really
trying to clear the air because I didn't want this uncomfortable feeling
hanging over us. I wasn't looking for a
simple and mechanical apology for the sake of getting one. I was looking for understanding. So I said, ‘if
we can't agree on what happened, let's just forget that it happened. You're my
friend and I love you. That's more important.’ His response was swift. He said he was sorry and meant it. He said he may not always agree with me, but
the fact that he made me feel a certain way is something he didn’t mean to do and
felt really bad about. He said a genuine
‘I’m sorry.’
Deep breath…and out. What a relief. So grateful for true friendships.Wednesday, September 17, 2014
Friendship
We had a
fight. Well, for us, it was a big
fight. We never raise our voices with
one another. We know and understand each
other. We are crazy different, but
appreciate each other for what we are. No
mistakes there. We have a very good
relationship. A long-term, dear friendship. So this is a very rare situation for us. I felt he yelled at me, talked over me and
assumed my response before I said anything.
I was livid. I felt
disrespected. What’s worse, when I tried
to discuss the matter I got nothing. Silence.
Not ‘we’ll discuss it later.’
Just nothing. So I had a chance
to stew over it a little. Then as the
days passed, I stewed over it some more.
Then, because I couldn’t stand it anymore, I made the call to fix
it. Turns out, he felt I shouted at him
and interrupted him. How can this
be? He felt disrespected. I just didn’t get it. Was he talking about the same
conversation? He was. I insisted he was wrong and that he raised
his voice and interrupted ME; treating me like a child and assuming he knew
exactly what I would say. I told him he
should just accept when he’s wrong. He
should admit it. Then he said ‘I’m
sorry.’ It didn’t feel good. I didn’t know what else to say. I was looking for empathy and reconciliation
and I got an ‘I’m sorry’ hurled at me. I
just said we’d talk later and hung up.
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